Baby-stepping to grace

baby feetI’ve posted on here lately about how I feel like I’m finally getting a small grasp on grace, starting to understand it and live in it. I had a cool confirmation of this while on a long drive this week. Please note: This is a small baby step so don’t get too excited here! (lol) It was just a cool moment for me.

I had pulled out an old Gungor CD to listen to in the car on my way down to Indianapolis to visit my mom in the hospital. I’ve always liked their sound and most of their music, especially the more worshipful songs. Anyway, I’m listening to the set and the song, “Please be My Strength” comes on. It’s a beautiful, more melancholy song, and I used to really connect with it when I would hear it. It totally describes how I used to feel about my relationship with Christ—always striving but never totally earning His acceptance.

As I listened, I still thought the song was beautiful, but it had no effect on my emotions and it didn’t induce longing the way it used to. It didn’t bring me down and make me feel like I will never be good enough for God to like me.  The words were beautiful but they no longer had the power to make me feel defeated spiritually. What a tiny, but HUGE God moment!

I’m posting the words and link below so you can hear it. I’m sure people who struggle spiritually like me will love it and identify with it, and understand how it made me feel. For all you recovering legalists, just listen and know that you will always fall short, and, no, you can’t sustain your own faith, but God will. It IS His love that’s keeping you! And me.

Please Be My Strength

I’ve tried to stand my ground
I’ve tried to understand
but I can’t seem to find my faith again

like water on the sand
or grasping at the wind
I keep on falling short

please be my strength
please be my strength
Cuz I don’t have anymore
I don’t have anymore

I’m looking for a place
that I can plant my faith
one thing I know for sure

I cannot create it
I cannot sustain it
It’s Your love that’s keeping me

Please be my strength…

at my final breath
I hope that I can say
I’ve fought the good fight of faith

I pray your glory shines
through this doubting heart of mine
so my world would know that You

You are my strength
You and You alone
You and You alone
Keep bringing me back home

 

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